Now 71 Days in the plasma light

71 days in the Theraphi Beam. I will try to describe what has happened in this process as well as I can. My last attempt to do so elicited a flood of messages and comments, some positive and a few negative, and I find it difficult to describe something so personal in a way that will be more universal and grok-able; I am no more special than you in any way, and I sincerely mean that. YOU are The Gift. But I am the lucky man who gets to sit in this device every day for as long as there appears to be Territory Ahead.

I feel wonderful physically. I have lost about 25 pounds and my body constitution has changed (less fat, more water, more lean mass percentages). I had “borderline” blood sugar from my crappy diet, and blood pressure that was not bad enough to be medicated. Now my diet has truly cleaned up, I think for good, and my digestion and gut are very happy as a result. No dairy, no gluten, no sweeteners except liquid Stevia and some honey, no alcohol. As ever, it’s the gut! And I used to take my supplements only a few days a week; now I can manage 5 or 6 days a week, and that alone makes a big difference. I sleep through the night most nights, and have no stiffness or soreness when I get up in the morning. My knees (both have had surgery) are pain free and the swelling and noises have gone away completely. My left sciatica and piriformis pain has resolved completely, and the basal cell skin cancer on my forehead has dried up and peeled off. I cut my fingernails and toenails MUCH more frequently, and the moons and ridges have completely disappeared. My old man prostate has improved by half, and the libido I was letting slip away is back. My cholesterol is 169 and my oxidized LDL has dropped; all inflammatory markers down, neurotransmitters up and normal FINALLY. My urine and saliva Iodine levels are 20 and 25 parts per million FINALLY (most people have undetectable iodine levels) AND my free and total testosterone levels have risen (with a drop in the FSH and LH levels as a result). I have not had my Growth Hormone level measured, but the IGF levels have risen to the high normal range. Turning to back out of the drive, or bending to pick something up, or even standing was beginning to hurt some almost all the time. Now, no. I FEEL GREAT!

I find I am able to manifest in a significant way. Not just little things like parking spaces and tables in restaurants, but manifesting and meeting Masters and other wonderful people everywhere I go. I always knew there were people who walked the planet who had learned how to use their extended senses and abilities, and sure enough there are. I am pleased to know a man who can bend time and space locally around him and am learning to do it as well. My guidance, which I have cultivated, is holographic and instantaneous, but I do not find it difficult to walk around Walmart and Costco and such like I used to at first, nor do I find it difficult to control my thoughts.

All though being creative, it is necessary to be a step ahead and to avoid the casual anger and curses and potty mouth (I confess). As it is my personal trial, I have had many opportunities to practice discernment and patience and compassion. I try to hold “I love you, I forgive you, I am sorry, please forgive me” in my heart and mind as my mantra, and some days I actually do. Nothing Real can be threatened, and nothing Unreal exists. Herein lies the Peace of God. It truly is a Peace that surpasses all understanding. Profound. Peace. I really helps to meditate every morning, and I am finding yoga helps ground me and anchor the transmutation physically.

But it is the emotional dross that has had to be processed and discarded has been most challenging and difficult. It really never occurred to me that anyone would actually come here and try to steal it all way for their own: their own group, their own profit and bank accounts, their own recognition, and who-knows-what-else. Someone I trusted more than anyone else in recent times used my trust to betray me and my work, for his/their own ends and goals, and this single betrayal has been more difficult than anything else to process. I trusted absolutely, and I know it reflects my continued craving for love and companionship from another human and my unhappy and far ranging efforts to find it. It has been wonderful, and it has been frustrating and I wish I had learned to be a nicer man sooner in life. I am lonely. This is difficult to admit to so starkly, because it feels so very vulnerable, because it is exactly that vulnerability that led to my apprentice’s betrayal and departure. There is no secret inside the box to steal; implosion is the “secret.” Though I would like to think I will not make that mistake again, I think I might, unless I do not. I regret I have felt the need to install cameras. I still believe there is One Thing you should never give up or ever compromise on, and that’s the Real Thing you need in Love.

In any case, it is most difficult to be human. With all our shortcomings. I must acknowledge and thank my food before I eat, or sometimes I simply cannot eat it. Lamb, veal, and pork are out of the question, most beef hard to swallow. As a result, my diet has changed to a lot of salads, smoothies, and soups. A song will make me teary and I find myself thinking about when I was a kid, back when it seemed my family was functional. The family is all gone, and so many friends, but they are not so far from here and now. We are here for such a wink in time, and we are so lucky to be here, now, in these bodies, after ALL THOSE LIFETIMES. We will not go back to sleep, I know.

I have finally met Mr. Wonderful, and He Is Me, but though I would like for it to be enough, it has not been, at least not yet. Perhaps that is the Territory Ahead. I hope still. Then there have been those friends who enthusiastically pointed out my shortcomings and dependencies, and those who have pointed out my strengths, and I welcome all these Masters and friends to be to come and join me in this Bliss of Theraphi. These people have been the true treasure of the Beam. They are drawn to it. It is the Real Thing. Control-Alt-Delete. Reboot.
I can see ahead. There is very little time left. I used to follow footsteps in the dark… now I “see” them ahead and they are calling to us, “Just a little longer, just a little more.”

I used to say “I am so tired.” Now I say, COME ON! Bring it on. And there is so MUCH more.

Love and Light,
Thomas